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To err is human, to forgive, divine? #WriteBravely

Hello Folks. Say Hi to my today’s Guest Blogger Shalini Baisiwala from Shalzmojo. I had the pleasure of meeting her last month and she comes across as a warm, confident and intelligent woman with inner strength. An interior designer by profession and a blogger by passion. Shalini blogs about her experiences of travel, food, books, mindfulness.

Please join me in welcoming Shalini to my space here and I hope you enjoy her thoughtful post as much as I do.
Over to you, Shalini…

“To err is human, to forgive, divine” – Alexander Pope

But what if I am not in the mood to be divine?

As a child I would often see my parents dismiss things – bad things said about them or people fighting with them. On the other hand, I would get very irked by this and fight with them as to why do they let such things slide? Over time I realized that they are just non-confrontational folks and simply avoid altercations for the ease of things.

When someone commits an act of transgression against me, I go through a whole gamut of emotions. From hurt to anger to humiliation to disillusionment to hurt! I feel betrayed and want to lash back in the same coin.

Why is it that, the moment they say sorry, everything is supposed to be good to go? Why am I labeled difficult, arrogant and stubborn when I say I need time to mull over things and cool down?

Could I please not have a time out?

The perp who has wronged me needs to understand how much devastation is caused by their wrong doing. I need time to sift through my pain and anger, to even consider forgiving them.

I am sincerely irked by the overtly patronizing folks who think they can “sort” this out for me. Listen dude, it’s my effing feelings and my effing hurt. Could you please back off and let me be?

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But no! The eminently sagacious denizens would like to play peacemakers; whether I want it or not. So then of course, I blow up (again, they say)

Their logic is that I am not being rational as I am too worked up. I am also being very stubborn by refusing to bend down.

Wow! Just wow!!!!

May I ask you what/who appointed you the Holy Grail on forgiveness?

And when I say I am ready to forgive, it doesn’t mean everything is as hunky dory as it ever used to be. My trust remains broken and it may or may not get repaired over time.

Again, it’s seen as my refusal to yield to common sense.

Forgiveness is equated with reconciliation when it’s not. By forgiving, I am choosing to move on. I am letting go of what you did to me. I don’t want to make you pay for what you did.

But this by no means should be taken as a sign of getting together. Faith or trust is hard earned and once broken; it’s as difficult to repair as a break in a mirror.

So excuse me if I chose to not to be divine!

So what’s your take on forgiveness, dear readers? By not reconciling, am I seeking retribution in your opinion? How do you deal with wrong doers?

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29 Responses

    1. Hey Bhavya, nice meeting you too. Thanks for stopping by and agreeing with me on the trust issue! Doesnt it feel foolish to trust these folks again? Almost like saying aa bail mujhe maar 😉

  1. what happens is that I can’t FORGET any acts of transgression against me , from people I love….
    ….. simply , I don’t trust them anymore, ……and little by little indifference takes place instead of fondness….

  2. A double dose of Shalini is like majorly WOW. I too enjoy her blogs and love reading her thoughts . I agree about the forgiveness part . It does make you feel lighter . What a lovely read in the morning. Thanks !

    1. It is truly difficult to bring back a relationship on the same level once the trust is broken. While I may forgive but forgetting does not come easily to me. But I have realized that it’s best to forgive and forget for your own sanity.
      Thanks for writing this post which is honest and simply straight from heart!

  3. I forgive for me, & my sanity not for you!
    As they say – fool me once shame on you- fool me twice shame on me!
    Oh, I can go on on this!

    Nice post Shalz and Shilpa!
    Hope to meet you both someday!

  4. Nice feature Shilpa. And a very honest post as usual Shalini. I am similar to you. Forgiveness doesn’t come easily to e, I am rather vocal about my displeasure, hurt, angst and need time to cool down. Despite the time, I am not sure I completely forgive people. Thats my way of making peace.

  5. In any relationship if the trust is broken it leaves a scar. It stays out of sight but you know it exists and ignoring it is a choice we make. I forgive and forget the wrong doer, period 🙂
    Shilpa, thanks for this refreshingly honest post by Shalini.
    Have a great day.

  6. Loved your guest post, Shilpa! What a wonderfully honest post, Shalini! I agree with you—forgiveness happens but trust breaks easily. It’s not easy for me either, but I forgive to feel better, when I know I have nothing to lose except my peace of mind! Forgetting is another matter altogether! I never realise how good a memory I have when I struggle to forget bad memories!

  7. I don’t forgive certain things easily. The heart, being what it is, gets irked at the smallest of things. And in retrospect, it feels trivial too. So if someone apologizes for that, I accept it. Also, if someone irks me, I tell them straight that this is what irks me. They should know what too. This “you go figure out why I’m mad at you and then come tell me why and if you are right, I will consider” funda doesn’t gel too well with me. You are angry with me, need a time-out? Well and good. Take one. But tell me straight, this is why.

    1. If only straight up-ness was practiced by all. I have often been accused of being “sorted” and that has been told to me as my biggest prob! Not only that its co-related with stubborness.
      Talk to the hand is what I should ideally tell them instead of harranguing with them!!
      More power to you if you are able to find such honesty from peeps!!

  8. Yes! If you say that you need time, they say that you’re holding a grudge. And, don’t even get me started on so called peacemakers. Busybodies… That’s all they are.
    Now, I’ve realised that I don’t have to stay passive, to please anyone. If they don’t like it, they can lump it.

    1. Good for you Apeksha!! Thats the way it should be. I have done and dusted away with so many peeps that I guess I would come across as short tempered or low tolerance person. But its so easy to say that to me and ignore what you have done to elicit that reaction from me!! And then their chamchas and chamchis take it on themselves to make peace – aaaargh!!!

  9. Lovely guest post. When people seek forgiveness and get it in return, they often misunderstand forgiving with forgetting. I may chose to forgive you for my own sake, yet whenever I am at similar crossroad again, I may not forget what you did the last time around. So one should not expect things to get absolutely back to normal. Be vary!

  10. Hey Shalini… So nice to see you here and I love how honestly you express your views. I don’t forget… And then I end up being indifferent… Like I really stop caring or worrying about them. Life is better without them.

  11. I forgive (sometimes), but I never forget. And that’s why, along with “forgiving”, I cut off ties with those people. If you hurt me, that’s because you did not value me. If you did not value me, I don’t trust you to do that in future and therefore, don’t think you’re worthy of my companionship. And no, it does not really make me feel like I’m carrying along any weight 😀 In fact, I feel happy those people are not part of my life anymore. Woohoo!

    And, if I hurt someone and they cut me off, I make my peace with that and understand there are other people like me. I’m not hypocritic 😀

  12. One perky girl you are Shalini! I agree, trust once broken is difficult to mend and forge back relations the way they were before. I am all for ‘meri marzi’! Love the spirit, it is not so easy to forgive and forget.

  13. I can completely relate with what you’ve written, Shalini, because I used to be like that. However, over time, I have become more non-confrontational, and more often than not, I choose to let things go. If for nothing, then for my own peace of mind.

    No it doesn’t mean I always forgive them, though sometimes I do. And it definitely doesn’t mean that I forget the incident, that I don’t. If it is something that has really hurt me, I never forget, and am always wary of that person. Trust broken is broken forever.

  14. So excuse me if I chose to not to be divine! Love this loads for I can never forgive nor forget people. That’s the way I am. So many times I wanna hit back at the people who have done wrong to me. I need my time to come to terms. Awesome Shilpa to feature Shalinee, she writes awesomely well and her words strike a chord to touch the heart.

  15. My God Shilpa thanks for this post, appreciate shalinee for a direct and outspoken post. I felt this post was for me; and I agree totally, the worst thing to do in life is fake what you are not. when trust is broken it is broken forever and its not easy to get back normal to the same old relationship in life. ” Forgiveness is equated to reconciliation” a very strong and true statement – in churches we are bombarded with this concept… to forgive and let go is not getting back to toxic which in fact is a stumbling block to your own growth process. I do not believe in wasting time with people who don’t trust you, they can even be from the family.. I forgive for my own good health so that I can move on in life … enjoying the present with gratitude. Thanks for this thought provoking post, very timely for me to even understand my own decisions.

  16. I tend to forgive and forget – forgive because that helps my peace of mind. Forget because I don’t want to hold on to those feeling anymore. But that doesn’t mean the person is back in my life, or that I can trust them again. Interesting post.

  17. Love your post Shalinee… remember it’s all experience and deciding what and who you like AND they are showing you parts of their story, not yours… so nothing to feel hurt about or forgive… just a reminder to love and trust yourself and be open to resonate with nice people like yourself… much love Barbara x Thanks Shilpa for sharing this lovely lady with us all x

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