Category: PERSONAL

  • If We Were Having Coffee… 7th July

    If We Were Having Coffee… 7th July

    If we were having coffee, I’d hand you a mug and say, “It’s still warm, don’t wait too long.” The weather’s been all over the place lately. Heavy skies, moody clouds, and that in-between kind of light that makes you want to stay in your pajamas a little longer than necessary. Perfect weather for a long chat and a little introspection.

    If we were having coffee, I’d tell you my to-do list is starting to look like a bad novel. Endless pages, no plot, and the main character (me) is constantly overwhelmed. I keep writing things down, hoping it’ll clear some space in my head, but honestly? It just adds more noise. Some days, I tick off one thing and feel victorious. Other days, I do everything except what’s on the list. And sometimes, I add things I’ve already done just for that satisfying little tick. You’ve done that too, right?

    If we were having coffee, I’d admit that my screen time is ridiculous. I used to watch full movies and binge-watch entire series in one day/night, now I can barely sit through a 40-minute episode. Everything feels like too much. I scroll through Instagram reels with zero context and even less attention span. Some of it is fun, sure. But at the end of it, I feel… cluttered. Mentally overstimulated and emotionally underwhelmed. I’m trying to cut back, trying to swap the mindless with something a little more mindful.

    Which brings me to baking….

    If we were having coffee, I’d offer you a cookie—slightly wonky but warm and fresh. I baked a small batch last evening and it reminded me why I love it so much. The process slows me down. There’s a rhythm to it. Measuring, mixing, waiting. It feels like meditation disguised as dessert. I want to bake more often, and try new recipes too. Not just the usual muffins and cakes, but maybe a tart, or something with lemon zest and …. We’ll see.

    And before you leave, I’d promise to show up here more often. Not with grand ideas or polished posts, but just as I am. With a story, a thought, maybe a question.

    So tell me… if we were having coffee today, what would you tell me?

  • A Letter to My Future Self

    A Letter to My Future Self

    Dear Future Me,

    First off, congratulations! You made it this far without turning into a complete grump (I hope). If you’re reading this, it means you survived all those plot twists life threw at you… and hopefully, you did so with your humour and a well-stocked stash of cake. So, grab a coffee (I assume that hasn’t changed) and let’s chat.

    How’s life treating you? Have you finally mastered the art of waking up early without setting five alarms? Do you still find joy in books, baking cakes and overanalysing life’s smallest moments for inspiration? I really hope you do because those things make you, well, YOU.

    Let’s do a quick check-in. Have you remained the optimistic, list-making, people-watching, coffee-loving person I know you to be? Or have you turned into one of those people who walks into a room and forgets why they’re there? (Actually, you already do that, so never mind.)

    A Letter to My Future Self

    I hope you still laugh at silly jokes and find joy in little things. Remember how much fun it was to observe people especially during those bus and train journeys and make up imaginary backstories for them? Or how satisfying it felt to cross things off your to-do list, even if you added an item just to check it off? (Yes, I know your tricks.)

    Tell me, has life been kind? Have you continued embracing challenges with curiosity and grace, turning them into stories worth telling? If things got tough, I hope you handled them the way you always have—with resilience, humour and maybe an extra slice of cake (because some things require more than just deep breathing).

    And what about the people in your life? Have you continued making time for those who truly matter? Do your boys still roll their eyes at your life lessons and unsolicited wisdom? Keep annoying them. That’s what love is all about.

    Oh and speaking of the boys, how’s Aaryan doing? Is he still dodging your advice or has he finally realized that moms do know everything? Whatever phase he’s in, just keep being his constant. He’ll always need you, even if he pretends otherwise.

    And what about blogging? Do you still share your musings, reflections and observations, or has life kept you too busy to type them out? I hope you never stopped writing. You always found magic in words and the world could always use more of your storytelling (even if it’s just your rants about mundane things around you).

    Have you turned baking into a business, or are you still collecting recipes, saving them in neatly categorized folders and buying more baking tools than you actually use? (Be honest, the baking dish collection must be getting out of hand by now.)

    Hope you have understood that it’s okay to not have it all figured out. Younger-you used to stress about having a plan for everything, but by now, I hope you’ve embraced the chaos. No one really has life figured out—that’s the fun part. Just when you think you do, life throws you a curveball and you’re back at square one. The key is to roll with it, laugh when you can and trust that things will fall into place.

    Before I wrap this up, let me leave you with a tiny reminder: Don’t sweat the small stuff. Let go of things that aren’t worth your energy. Keep smiling, keep learning and for heaven’s sake, don’t let anyone tell you you’re too old to dream big.

    Take care, future me. You’re doing great. (And if you ever need a little boost, just reread this letter and remind yourself—you’ve always had what it takes.)

    With love and a wink,
    Your slightly younger, slightly wiser self

    Linking this to Dear Her… Letters from Women to Women by Blog-A-Rhythm

    Dear Her... Letters from Women to Women by Blog-A-Rhythm

  • If We Were Having Coffee… 29th January

    If We Were Having Coffee… 29th January

    If we were having coffee, I’d greet you with a warm and cheerful “Hello!” How have you been? I hope everything is going wonderfully your way. It’s so good to have you here in my space—it’s been a while since it was last open, but now it’s up and running again! So, make yourself at home and grab a beverage of your choice—I’m so glad you’re here!

    If we were having coffee, I’d share that my blog has been sitting in a quiet, forgotten corner of the internet for far too long. It’s not like I don’t want to write—I do. But every time I sit down to type, my brain decides to stage a protest. Words refuse to flow and I find myself staring at the blinking cursor, feeling utterly uninspired. And so, I close my laptop and move on to something else. I work, I laze around, I scroll through endless reels (more on that later!), but the guilt of not writing lingers. It nags at me, like a to-do list item I keep ignoring. What is it, really? Writer’s block? A phase? Or am I simply out of the habit? Whatever it is, I knew I had to break the cycle.

    Thankfully, a fellow blogger friend, Tulika gave me the nudge I needed and here I am, finally tapping away at my keyboard. Sometimes, a little push is all it takes, right?

    If we were having coffee, I’d also tell you that my binge-watching skills are on a decline. I used to take pride in finishing an entire series in one sitting, but now? It takes me a week, sometimes more! Is my attention span shrinking? Maybe, just maybe, reels are to blame. Those quick, dopamine-packed clips have reprogrammed my brain to consume content in bite-sized bursts.

    That being said, I finally managed to watch Paatal Lok Season 3 after seeing countless reels featuring short clips from it—watched it all in about 4-5 days, and it’s an absolute masterpiece! Jaideep Ahlawat is just phenomenal in it—what a class actor! His expressions, body language, and the way he brings the character to life are just incredible. I was heartbroken when a young cop died (no spoilers, don’t worry!). I’ve also just started Squid Game Season 2, and it’s already got me hooked! The intensity and the stakes are even higher this time. Have you watched it yet?

    If we were having coffee, I’d share how I’m feeling a tiny bit victorious today because I’ve started writing again. It’s a start and I truly hope I can keep going. There’s something incredibly satisfying about seeing your words take shape on a screen, don’t you think? It’s like stretching muscles you haven’t used in a while—slightly stiff at first but oh-so-rewarding once you find your flow. I’ve missed this feeling, the quiet joy of putting thoughts into words, of capturing fleeting ideas before they disappear into the abyss of everyday life.

    If we were having coffee, what would you share with me? I’m all ears!

    And before we part ways, let me make a little promise—to show up here more often, to keep this space alive and to never let the words stay locked up for too long.

     

  • If We Were Having Coffee… 28th January

    If we were having coffee

    If we were having coffee, I’d wish you a hello and thank you for stopping by for a cup of coffee and some conversations here.

    If we were having coffee, I’d tell you that I am feeling crushed, overwhelmed and distressed. There’s a lot that is going on inside my head and I don’t know from where to start. Guess, starting from the beginning would be ideal. The thing is that we got to know some 10 days ago that Aaryan’s school friend D, killed himself. He was just 18. This news has shattered all of us. I feel sick to my stomach as tears fill my eyes every now and then. Aaryan is upset and keeps saying, he wouldn’t do such a thing. They were together in their boarding school for 6 years. He was a brilliant student both in academics and extra-curricular activities and was pursuing a professional course from a prestigious college. It’s kind of shocking that someone with so much potential is just…. gone.

    Aaryan and 17 of his class mates traveled from all over the country to be there for his prayer meeting last weekend at Delhi. When he returned back home that night, I asked him about his trip and he said that it was the worst day ever. He shared that D’s parents are so devastated and their grief is so deep.

    I don’t know how they’ll cope with this big loss. Children are supposed to outlive the parents and seeing your young kid go away is a trauma that will never go away, I guess.

    If we were having coffee, I’d share that loss of such a young life has numbed me and a few questions keep reverberating in my head. How could he do that? What could have happened that led him to take this extreme step? What troubled him that he couldn’t find a solution and taking his life seemed the best option to him? Did he talk about his problem with anyone? I wish, he had. Because, if he had, someone would have showed him the light or offered him help and support that he needed so badly.

    If we were having coffee, I’d share that wish we all realize that communicating with our family and friends is so important. Being connected to our loved ones, our community, and the world around us, is key to suicide prevention. I wish, people speak up, open their hearts, stay connected and stay positive. And above all, NEVER GIVE UP… because there is ALWAYS a way out!

    If we were having coffee, I’d reiterate that it is our responsibility to look out for those who may be struggling and encourage them to tell their story in their own way, at their own pace. Offering a gentle word of support, compassion and empathy, listening in a non-judgmental way can make all the difference.So…Take a minute and change a life.

    Why take a minute? Because taking a minute to observe and think can make a difference. Because conversations change lives. So, wherever you are, have that conversation that could save someone’s life.

    If we were having coffee, I’d ask you to pray for D’s soul and keep his family and friends in your prayers.

    Take care all of you and stay positive and connected always! ♥

  • My Word of the Year for 2020

    Are you excited about the new year and the fresh clean slate that it offers? I am!!

    The start of a new year always feels like a chance to try new things and maybe even “start over” with our life and its goals. I know, this ‘new year, new me’ is cliché, but I believe that this is the perfect opportunity to reflect on what is and what isn’t working for us.

    Since the last couple of years, I have been choosing a word to define my whole year which is known as the Word of the Year. By having a word to guide my year, I found it easier to create goals and resolutions that synced with my overall approach for the year.

    I had chosen Focus as My Word of the Year for 2019. I made efforts to live up to it for the entire year, and did fairly well with my goals and plans for 2019 except for regular exercise. 2019 made be realize the importance and significance of focus in the different aspects of my life.

    I believe, words have power and the word that I am going to centre my life and goals this 2020 is…

    EVOLVE

    Evolve means a process of constant change or renewal from a lower or simple state to a higher state.

    As CS Lewis said, you cannot go on indefinitely being just an ordinary, decent egg. You must be hatched or go bad. Small things always grow into big things. The little habits, whether good or bad, always develop into bigger, more prominent behaviors.

    To me, Evolve means to be a better version of myself. It means to evolve through the choices and the intentions I set … every day. .

    To Evolve is to develop and grow myself gradually from within. It means to allow the evolution of my mindset, emotions, habits, daily routine, associations, actions, and life.

    Evolve means to be grounded, connected, stable, calm, strong, and at peace and growing upward.

    Word of the Year for 2020

    I’d like to Evolve in three spheres of my life

    1. Personal
    • Calm the Monkey Mind – Delve more deeply into my spiritual journey.
    • Physical Health – Drop the excuses and get on with burning calories, regularly.
    2. Professional
    • Push Beyond Boundaries  – Step outside my comfort zone to get experience in new areas in the field of training workshops and blogging.
    • Broaden Work Horizons – Pick up new knowledge and skills to increase value-add to the current skill-set.
    3. Passion
    • Read – Read more, more and some more
    • Bake – Experiment, excel and expand the home baking business

    “It’s time to evolve.” Bill Hicks

    These are the thoughts that will be guiding and hopefully transforming me this year.  And with this I am kick-starting my new year.

    Have you chosen a Word of The Year? Do you believe in Word of The Year or New Year resolutions? Do share your thoughts.

  • 10 Reasons Why I Make Lists

    My father is very meticulous in everything he does. I have grown up seeing him make lists. While he made grocery lists, expenses list, I have gone a step further and become a compulsive list maker. I make lists for everything… to-do list for work, things to pack for a trip, list of friends to invite for dinner, the dinner menu for a get-together, things to do for diwali cleaning, gifts ideas, ideas for blog posts, bills to pay, list of eateries to explore… then there are wish-lists for books, gadgets… I even have bucket lists and an anti-bucket list too. My notepads on my bedside table, pocket diary in my bag and my smart-phone has lists of all these things and much more.

    Today, let me list the reasons why I make lists and you should make lists too…

    • Lists bring order to the chaos and help organize better. Why I Make To-Do ListsLists help in organizing what appears to be overwhelming. Listing the task into smaller do-able parts makes the daunting task less intimidating. Lists provide structure and a plan that you can stick to. For example, Diwali Cleaning usually gives us heebie jeebies, initially. But with a list like this, (this is my last year’s Diwali Cleaning list), the task appears simpler and less overwhelming. 
    • Lists encourage you to focus on what truly matters. With a list in hand, you can review from time to time the important stuff that needs to be finished first. It keeps you on track and helps to prioritize the tasks, in case you stray away.
    • Lists keep you accountable. When you are making a list, you are promising yourself that you’re going to take action. There’s no hiding behind your memory or excuses of more important things to do. When you look back on your list of tasks for the day or goals for the month, you feel responsible. In case you have not accomplished them, you’ll be more driven to go back and complete your tasks or goals.
    • Lists boost productivity. Writing the tasks is almost like the first action taken toward getting rid of an item off the list. The key to reaching high levels of performance and productivity is to tackle major tasks first. Focusing on one task at a time from your list, boosts efficiency and helps you to accomplish your goals.
    • Lists help in managing time. Lists help you to take control of your time. You tackle the most important jobs first, and don’t waste time on trivial tasks. Since you have already planned and/or thought about the task in advance, you can finish the job easily on time and without any last minute rush.
    • Lists improve memory. Writing makes your memory’s job easier. Writing a to-do list transfers the scattered memory of what you have to do down on paper and makes the items unforgettable and practically indestructible. It is proven that when you write something down you remember it longer.
    • Lists eliminate stress. “I have a zillion things to do, how am I going to manage to do it all?” This questions pops up frequently during conversations. A list will help you ease these fears. Needless to say, with better planning and better time management, you will be free from unwanted stress.

    why I make lists

    • Lists act as great reminders. Lists help to remember what you have already done and what is still pending. And with writing a list you are usually not forgetting any important thing.
    • Lists increase the happiness and satisfaction quotient. Nothing is more rewarding and satisfying than seeing the tick against the tasks that you have accomplished. It increases your self esteem and helps you stay motivated too.
    • Lists evoke nostalgia. Lists are actually the chronicles of your life. If you are writing the various lists you generate in a notebook, you can get an account of your life during a particular period. For example, the list below is some 22 years old and is for the things we needed after marriage, to make our home. And this list always takes me back in time… how we planned, the discussions we had about the curtain colour (how I was stuck on ‘mera wala green!), the shops we scoured between Borivili and Andheri… This notepad has the list of 14 friends we had invited for our first house-warming party…. the names have made my heart do the time travel… it’s been ages we spoke to so many of them…

    Why I Make Lists

    Whether it’s everyday to-do lists or things to do at work, making lists really help to live a more purposeful life.

    Are you a list person like me? Or do you find that writing a list just stresses you out more?

  • If We Were Having Coffee… 13th November

    If we were having coffee

    If we were having coffee, I would thank you for taking the time to meet me here over a cup of coffee. How are you doing! Hope all’s good at your end.

    If we were having coffee, I would share that my leg is still in a cast and I am still partially immobile. While I am pretty happy about the way I am spending my time, there are a few things that make me pull my hair out too. First, let’s talk about the good things. I have been reading like crazies and am so chuffed about it. The best thing that has come out of this temporary disability is that I got uninterrupted long hours to read and that too, to my heart’s content.

    I have completed my HT Book Brunch Challenge and 2019 Pop Sugar Reading Challenge. The Write Tribe Reading Challenge 2019 is nearly done (just have to do a few book reviews) and I am 4 books short of my Goodreads 2019 Reading Challenge. So I still have plenty of time to spare till the end of the year and I am sure, I’ll be overshooting my goal of 100 books. Woohoo!

    If we were having coffee, I’d share that all’s not well on our kitchen front. The downside to this confinement of mine has resulted in KG, the passionate chef and AG, the aspiring chef, taking complete control over our kitchen. Earlier, they would man the kitchen usually on the weekends and cook up a storm, literally and figuratively. Sigh! I was Ok with this arrangement. I was getting rest from cooking and getting to eat great food and thanks to my OCD for cleaning, I certainly didn’t mind cleaning up the mess that my boys created in the kitchen.

    But now, my kitchen certainly feels that they have over stayed their welcome and I am simply fed up of their cooking! Yes, I am tired of eating the gourmet food, every day!

    All the three meals of the day are prepared and presented by my boys as if they are on Masterchef Australia. Don’t believe me? Sample this… The other day, cauliflower was on the menu. For this, first the cauliflower and potatoes were parboiled, the whole spices (khada masala) were dry roasted, onions slices were fried and then grinded to a paste along with cashew nuts, tomatoes were popped in the microwave to peel their skin…. you get the drift. Who makes gobhi ki subzi like this??

    And guess the number of vessels they used in making one dish? 10+!! Once it reached 10, I removed myself mentally from the situation and got back to my reading!! I would have made it with one pan and a spatula!

    There’s more… If on day 1, it was bread and omelette for breakfast, on day 7, it will be bread and omelette but both the bread and omelette would be cut into perfect small squares and stir fried! Yes, they don’t like to repeat their dishes!

    Plated Food
    This is how food is plated and served to me.

    After every meal, the kitchen looks like it has been hit by a hurricane, with the dirty vessels overflowing from the kitchen sink to the adjacent balcony! I am sensing that the patience of my house help is wearing thin with each passing day and I can totally empathize with her.

    If we were having coffee, I’d tell you that my friends envy me but they do not know what it is to spit out green cardamom, cloves and black pepper with almost every bite!

    If we were having coffee, I’d share that after venting it all out, I realize that I am acting like a thankless annoying person. And that my boys have been handling all the affairs of the home with a smile since a month despite my complains and tantrums. I am seeing that the benefits of having a supportive husband and son certainly outweigh the rants I have just  shared.

    If we were having coffee, I’d share that in another 7-8 days, my cast will come off and I can’t wait to get back to my regular routine…. and of course simple comfort food.

    If we were having coffee, what would you share with me? Will you empathize with me or will you give me a knock on my head!

  • 5 Things About Life I Wish I Had Known 20 Years Ago #WordsMatter

    A dose of wisdom arrives with every fine line! Yes, we learn more about life as we get older.

    As I sit today and reflect, I realize that with passing years, I have learned quite a few things. Had I known them some 20 years ago, I would have made different choices, both in my personal and professional life. Here are 5 things about life I wish I had known 20 years ago…

    1. Develop Healthy Eating Habits

    20 years ago, I believed that I had a lifetime free pass to eat whatever junk I wanted and it wouldn’t affect my body in any visible adverse way. But now that I’ll be 50 in a couple of years, Boy! Does this fat love my body!?! The fat sticks to me for dear life!! And my best and sincere efforts to banish it, fail miserably. I wish, I had known 20 years ago that a healthy diet is important when you’re young. And that’s because, what you eat today has a big impact on your health tomorrow

    2. Worry Less

    Worry has been my middle name. I have spent sleepless nights worrying about big things like jobs during recession, rising inflation, health scare due to air pollution and small things like the tone of the email from the boss or about getting stuck in the traffic. I have imagined dire scenarios about all these big and small things. It’s only now that the greys in the head have made me realize that most of the imagined worst case scenarios never happened! I wish, I had known 20 years ago that worrying is pretty useless as it often gives a small thing a big shadow. And life usually turns out just fine.

    5 Things About Life I Wish I Had Known 20 Years Ago

    3. Let Go

    For years, I have carried heavy baggage in my head. I have lived in the past for a long time. I have nurtured the hurt and resentments so much that they made me bitter. It was much later that I learnt that you can’t start the next chapter of your life if you keep re-reading the last one. I wish, I had known that letting go of things that pull you down will not only free you but give you peace and happiness too.

    4. Enjoy the Journey

    I have spent most of my life, ticking off things in my to-do lists. I crammed my day with obligations and responsibilities, and raced from one task to another like a worker bee and felt smug at the end of the day to see the accomplished tasks. It has taken 20 years to know that it is important to focus on the journey, not the destination. Joy is found not in finishing an activity but in doing it.

    5. Maintain Quality Connections

    Life gets busy and it runs at a faster pace after the 20s. I am seeing that so many of my friends from school, college, co-workers from earlier work places have slowly faded from my life. Relationships are a big part of our lives, yet it is one of the easiest things to neglect. I wish, I had stayed connected with a few of my good old friends. And that is because there is no better “fix” than having friends (more specifically girlfriends) to vent to, listen to, shop with, have lunch or a glass of wine with, support, or hold us up through a storm!

    What are some of the life lessons you wish you had known 20 years ago?

    I received this tag from Parul Kashyap Thakur at Happiness and Food. It’s my pleasure to pass on this tag to Vinay R from I Rhyme Without Reason. There are 29 of us on this Blog Hop and it will be spread over 3 days – 1st, 2nd and 3rd November. Do follow the #WordsMatter Blog Hop and prepare to be surprised!

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